A NOTE TO GOD

Dear God,

I often ask myself why my life turned out the way it did.

What I fail to ask is why it did the way it didn't

Sorry for all the moments I took you for granted (I still do)

And I apologize for blaming you

When my own heart carried me away on its whims

I am also sorry that I forget to count my blessings

And share the riches you have gifted me

Love, laughter and life

I owe you one for all the rubs I got

Otherwise as Rumi said, how would I be polished?

I know I have hardened my heart against love

And I ask you to melt away my unforgiving disposition

Cultivated from the little hurts of life

I have forgotten to look at the rainbow in awe

And be inspired

Oh, I need your forgiveness for looking away

When love was all was needed and a little compassion

To aid my fellow brothers and sisters!

And for being a snivelling hypocrite 

Full of self pity while expressing outwardly courage!

But now I determine Lord

To make a difference

For from one begins many and more

Help me not to let my disappointments and triumphs

Disillusion or delude me

And make me an instrument in this world,

Your beautiful creation

To make life even more joyful and worth living!